There are good times and there are bad times and there are times between them. The good ones pass by being happy and hoping for the best. The bad times go away with you just remembering the good ones and hoping to get them back desperately. But the ones in between make you feel miserable. Its the time when the real war between the good and bad conscience occurs. You have already have had good times and you have had bad times. You know how good the good times were and how bad the bad times can be. There is a silver lining on the black cloud that you are well aware but you fear that will fade away. You know everything about being optimistic and never giving up. You still preach the same to people who turn to talk to you. But you seem not to learn what you teach. You still do everything very diligently and you firmly believe that this time things will change and you will get the results. But no! Things will turn out to be just a little less than great and then you begin to doubt whether they are even ok. And then you start quantifying and measuring everything. Alas! Maths doesn't work everywhere and two bad points or even normal ones stand up against the good ones as Goliaths versus Liliputs. And these Goliaths make your David/s appear real tiny; even minuscule to cheer you up. You know then that things are not ok; they are not bad but they are not good as well...not even tending towards that. And that makes these times worse than bad. It makes you despise them; for they appear to deprive you of all hope and dreams and expectations. Your optimism appears to be ready for a run and pessimism spreads its wings to take over. The silver lining is fading away. You are not even sure it will reappear. All the good times seem a tad distance away; and the bad times ever so near. Those are the times you fear the most; more than the bad times.
Because these are the UGLY TIMES!!
